I try not to let him know, but this little guy has me wrapped around his little finger. With his expressive eyes, charming smile and lots of kisses, he melts my heart. It's my Mommy secret....don't tell him!! =)
My small group is studying the book Fearless by Max Lucado. Every chapter gives me so much to think about, but this week's chapter really touched my heart. The chapter is entitled Fear of Running Out.
I fear that I will literally run out. That I will fall over from exhaustion by evening, that I will simply sit down and not be able to get up, that I will somehow fall asleep on my feet or that I will not have the energy to respond kindly and intelligently let alone enjoy my children and husband.
Matthew 6:25 was the key Scripture for this chapter. "I tell you not to worry about everyday life--whether you have enough."
Whether you have enough.... enough business, enough cashflow for paychecks, enough of me for my children, enough of me for my husband.
Enough. The word just kept rolling around in my mind. There is not enough. I'm not enough. I can't will myself to be enough. Max Lucado told the story of Jesus telling the disciples to feed 5,000 people with 5 loaves and 2 fish. The disciples quickly realized that they did not have enough to feed the people. But when they added Jesus to the equation they had enough food to feed everyone plus 12 baskets leftover.
That is what I'm learning. I face every day with me + Jesus. And with Him I have more than enough.
The words to Jeremy Camp's song More have been going through my mind.
And all of you Is more than enough for All of me For every thirst and every need You satisfy me with your love And all I have in you is more than enough You are more than enough.
More than all I want More than all I need You are more than enough for me. More than all I know More than all I can see You are more than enough for me.
It's like getting ready for Christmas around here. This week is all revolving around preparation for 2 special days next week and a house full of company this weekend. Yesterday was grocery shopping, tonight was decorating a cake. Tomorrow is a play date and Friday is cleaning, baking and decorating another cake. And, oh yes, welcoming Grandma and Grandpa to our house!
The product of the hubby and wife shopping trip referred to on yesterday's post. Aliza is quite pleased with her big bed. We tried Big Lots first. They had one twin bed in stock and it was on sale. So we took it. Linda had a twin size sheet and comforter set from college and Mom had some twin sheet sets for back up. I accepted those donations--and now we have a big bed for a big girl! If money was no object I would have a Pottery Barn Kids room for my little girl. Aliza has consistently declared that her favorite color is blue so this comforter absolutely tickled her.
Aliza and Josiah got to have some time with Aunt Janell and Uncle Jeff. Aliza could hardly wait for Sunday when they would come to babysit. Jeff and Janell now have Aliza's crib for their baby. Janell's tummy is getting a lot of love from Aliza. Aliza hugs, kisses, tickles and pats the baby. Aliza says, Awwwww, I love your baby.
Josiah cuteness today: Jeremy sneezed and Josiah promptly said, "Bless you." Jeremy has been doing a lot of sneezing today. On purpose. I think he likes being blessed by Josiah. =)
My pace of life has slowed down. It has been a good thing, I think. The snow kept us inside and has settled us in a good routine. So I'll just share some random happenings of our week.
My mind has been filled with party planning. It is birthday season for us and then there are a couple other parties in the works.
Walking in the snow is tough. We walked over to visit our neighbor. The snow was icy and our feet were not sinking to the ground. Holding a little boy's hand and keeping up with our fearless leader was good exercise.
We've been outside just about every day. I'm thankful for fresh air.
I had a lovely skype visit with my friend in Mexico.
I'm recording the Olympics every night. I watch when I have a chance. That will be my entertainment for the rest of the winter. I really enjoy the Olympics.
This is what happened as we were getting ready to walk out the door to spend a morning at my Mom's house: I had a day off today. I got some help making party decorations that will show up here a couple times in the future. Scrapbooking was, of course, on the agenda also. The conversations with my sisters and friends while we sit at the table renew my soul.
Aliza read to Josiah on the couch this morning. Josiah puts two words together now. Usually More + another word.
Bible study was especially awesome this week.
Tomorrow I get to spend a little time shopping with my hubby. More on that later!
We had a heart party tonight. Heart plates and napkins, heart shaped pizza (thank you Papa Johns), heart shaped cake and a new collection of love stories from Veggie Tales. I had chocolate out on the counter that was allowed to be eaten all day. Josiah took full advantage of the chocolate availability. He was covered in chocolate by the end of the evening.
Aliza really liked the roses Jeremy brought home for me the other day. She thought that she should have gotten flowers too. I told her that when she sees those roses she should remember that Daddy LOVES Mommy. Someday she will realize how awesome it is to have two parents who are married and love each other. Jeremy also sent me a subtle hint for Valentine's Day---he got me a golf glove, practice golf balls, and a visor. I'm guessing there is a set of clubs in my future. I wonder if I even have the ability to play golf. It's so technical and I am so clueless!
In a typical winter, we might get 6 inches of snow. This year has been quite different. Yesterday was our 3rd snow storm in 10 days. It snowed all day yesterday, but it was almost impossible to tell how much accumulated given how much we already had on the ground. The wind blew hard. We were under a blizzard warning and by evening the city declared a state of emergency. If you were on the road within city limits between 6pm last night and 3pm today you could get a ticket. School has been closed all week.
Jeremy's car does not have enough traction to get out. There is a thick layer of ice under the snow. The one day that we could leave the house I did not have a car. Thankfully Mom was off work and could take me to Wal-Mart to get a few necessities before yesterday's storm.
Here are a few pictures from today.
View from the kitchen. There should be 2 steps visible and a bench. This is an area that really drifted.
The top of a garden flag pole.
There is a road out there---somewhere!
The next 4 pictures are of Aliza. She started wiping the snow off the cars. Then she stood on a pile of snow and realized she could climb on the car. When she came in she told me that she had an adventure. All by herself.
Josiah was happy to find a shovel. Such a big helper!
A video of Aliza on the car and Josiah walking around in the snow.
Hopefully Jeremy will be able to get his car out soon so that I can get out! I'm mentally prepared for a few more days though.
The snow started at noon on Friday. It didn't really accumulate, but it was coming down. Friday night the snow changed to rain/sleet/ice and the wind howled. At 2:50am we lost electricity. I know the exact minute because Jeremy's computer backup power supply alarms when the power goes out. This wakes up the whole household. Aliza was awake for over an hour. She was a little scared about the wind and the ice hitting her window. The wind really howled and the windows shook. Our power company estimated that power would be restored by 6am. Thankfully we do have a propane insert in our fireplace so we had some heat. That insert is in such a place in our house that the heat goes straight upstairs, but does not heat the downstairs at all.
When we woke up there was no power. We thought we could wait it out. So we stayed upstairs, reading, looking at pictures on the computer and just hanging out. By 11:30 there was still no electricity and the power company was not giving an estimated time at this point. The snow was coming down harder and accumulating faster. We decided that we better head to my parents before the children took naps. We were afraid that it we waited we wouldn't be able to get out of the driveway and we had no desire to spend a dark evening at our house. We had no problem getting to Mom and Dad's house. Later that afternoon we found out that power came back on at our house about an hour after we left. Figures! But by that point it really was not smart to be driving. We ended up staying at my parents for 2 nights (last night so that we could watch the Super Bowl).
We got about a foot of snow. Jeremy, Dad, Jeff and Brian cleared our driveway yesterday. There is a thick layer of ice under a a bunch of snow and Jeremy could not get his car out today.
The craziest part is that we could get up to 6 more inches by Wednesday! Aliza doesn't even ask to go out anymore. We are all over the excitement of snow!
Matt & Chrissy got married five years ago. Jeremy and I were Best Man and Maid of Honor. Chrissy just gave me some pictures and they brought back so many memories for me. Bear with me for a few moments of vanity.
Chrissy's wedding was a mere two weeks after my second thyroid surgery where my vocal cords were damaged. I was just getting my voice back, regaining strength and my thyroid levels were decreasing. I insisted on wearing the scarf around my neck so that for a few hours I could forget my scar. I remember being utterly exhausted, but I also remember feeling so pretty that day. Getting my hair and make up done was an esteem boost that I really needed. I was so excited for Jeremy to see me. I got to walk up the aisle with him and dance with him at the reception (yes, that was my first ever dance). This was a bright day in a period of time that I remember as pretty dark.
Now, about this snow that we are getting! I like snow. It's pretty, it's peaceful, it makes winter a little brighter. But, for this winter, I'm over it. I've seen enough. We've been in the house for too many days. One weekend snowed in was plenty for me. That weekend was last weekend. We are on our second weekend in a row of snow. Totally unheard of! The snow from last weekend is still on the ground. Several more inches have accumulated tonight and now I hear ice hitting the windows. Jeremy has declared that we will be going to the Super Bowl party on Sunday. Do you hear a little desperation in that?!
Josiah started enjoying the snow yesterday. It has melted some so as long as he was holding Grandma's hand he was happy to walk around in the snow. He periodically tasted the snow and still refused to wear hat and gloves so he tried his hardest not to fall down.
When Laura and Aliza finished their snow man Josiah gave him a kiss. He has melted my heart recently with his random kisses. Usually two or three at a time complete with a big smooch noise.